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Kayelyn lost 80 pounds


Transformation of the Day: Kayelyn lost 80 pounds. A lack of self-esteem was eating away at her, and she was tired of making excuses. While her boyfriend was deployed, she focused on loving herself more and changing her lifestyle. She used one of Shaun T’s workout programs, traditional Keto and intermittent fasting, to release the weight.

I’ve never shared these pictures before, so this is SUPER emotional for me. In September 2019, I was at my lowest point mentally and my highest wait physically. The impact of my weight gain affected every aspect of my life. At this time, instead of continuing to make excuses, I decided to make a change. Every day was a fight mentally, spiritually, and physically, but I could not, did not, and will not quit. 

In 2019, My boyfriend and I were having a conversation, and he asked me, “Tell me one thing you love about yourself?” At that moment, I could not answer him. My lack of self-esteem was slowly eating away at every good thing I had in my life. We found out he was deploying to the Middle East. I decided that during the time he was gone, I would learn to love myself, which began with weight loss. 

I started my journey weighing in at 230 pounds. I decided that if anyone could get my body right, it was Shaun T, so I started doing the Insanity workout program alongside the Keto diet. I wasn’t the person who did the “dirty” keto diet, though. I stuck to leafy green vegetables, cauliflower, avocados, fish, lean meats, and every keto snack I could find! 

I am the type of woman who LOVES (as in would sell a kidney for carbs). To succeed, I knew I would have to find healthy alternatives for the things I loved most. I’ve created a cheesy bacon cauliflower mash that would make you slap your mama! 

Between the Insanity program, intermittent fasting, and Keto, I lost about 30 pounds. After that, due to Covid, I focused mainly on my diet. I continued with the diet that I stuck to during Insanity for about seven months, and I lost about 40 more pounds. 

It’s been about a year and a half now, and I am down a total of 80 pounds, weighing in at 150 pounds! Today I focus on mental and physical health and overall wellness. I’m learning to develop a healthier relationship with food by eating healthy and clean during the week and eating the foods I love in moderation on the weekends. I also make sure to work out six days a week. I feel like a new woman. 

Do you still work out using the Insanity program, or has the content of your workouts changed?
The content of my workouts has definitely changed. I used the Insanity program as the first step to my journey. I still utilize different components of the Insanity program, such as the HIIT workouts and stretching techniques. Now my workouts are centered around weight lifting, focusing on different muscle groups each day. My workouts begin with 15 minutes of cardio (stair master or 15 minutes of sprints for 45 seconds at a 10 speed and rest for one minute)

What is your height?
My height is 5 feet, 7 inches.

How long did your transformation take?
I started my journey in September 2019, and my journey to lose excess weight and took until about December 2020. Now my current journey is maintaining my weight as well as toning my body. Stay tuned!

What is the biggest lesson you’ve learned so far?
I think the biggest lesson I’ve learned is to take everything one day at a time. I started my weight loss journey (not by choice) in 2011. Every time, I would begin to think about what I would look like in one month, three months, six months, etc., I would feel overwhelmed. I was overwhelmed thinking about what if I didn’t look like what I wanted to look like in that time frame. 

When I started focusing on the 24 hours that I was in and not thinking about the what if’s, I found it much easier to make it through the months! I also had to learn not to care AS much about the number on the scale. I was never satisfied even after hitting all of the goals I wanted to hit. I was the person who would look at the scale five times a day every day. Instead of focusing on that number, now I look for muscles that I’ve never seen before. Now I focus on setting new goals and loving what I see in the mirror. If I love what I see in the mirror, I don’t care about the number on the scale. 

Is weight loss surgery part of your journey?
I did not have weight loss surgery. 

What advice would you like to share with women who want to lose weight?
For any woman struggling to lose weight, I will tell you what I have told everyone who asks me about my weight loss: Take it one day at a time. The only obligation we have to ourselves on this journey is to make it through the 24 hours we are in. Don’t think about tomorrow or what your body will look like in a month. Get through the 24 hours you are in and make conscious choices about your health. 

I never thought that I would be able to do it. I feel so good and am working on inspiring women to feel good about themselves through my new personal motivational blog, OhKayeFitness.

Instagram: @OhKayeFitness 

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Sneak Peek of some of the NEW recipes from the May 28 Day Weight Loss Challenge

We have some AMAZING new recipes being added to the Healthy Mummy App for the May 28 Day Weight Loss Challenge which starts on May 3rd 2021!

As we head into the cooler months, and with a mix of snacks, main dishes and desserts, these new Autumnal recipes will keep things exciting and new as you get on top of your health and weight loss goals.

They’ll be 20 new recipes added to the Healthy  Mummy App in May, 5 new every week. Not only that, we have a brand new No Equipment Workout Program with Joanne, also coming to the App in May! Find out more about the No Equipment Workouts here!

Check out these NEW delicious Recipes on the May 21 Challenge!

1. Warming Wonton Soup – 252 calories

This soup really is food for the soul! It’s so easy to make and you can get it on the table in less than 15 minutes!

Get the recipe here

2. Salmon, Tomato & Canneloni Beans -417 calories

The perfect mid-week meal, that is satisfying as the evenings get cooler and packs a flavour punch!

Get the recipe here

3.Cafe Style Smashed Avocado – 324 calories

No need to spend heaps at your local trendy cafe when you can knock up this delicious breakfast in no time.

Get the recipe here

4. Hot Chocolate on a Stick – 201 calories

OMG! How good do these look? Decadent blocks of chocolatey goodness to dissolve in a warm cup of milk. YUM!

Get the recipe here

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Join the thousands of mums on the 28 Day Weight Loss Challenge tackling and ACHIEVING their weight loss goals.

Whether you have 5 kilograms to lose or 35 kilograms to lose – The Healthy Mummy is here to SUPPORT YOU and your PERSONAL WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY.

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Cafe Styled Smashed Avocado

No need to break the bank on overpriced smashed avo at the local cafe when you can easily create this tasty breakfast or snack at home.  With a delicate mix of flavours from the salty feta, creamy avo and sweet tomatoes, this recipe from the 28 Day Weight Loss Challenge is quick and easy to whip and will save you time and money!

Tips for the perfectly smashing avocado

  1. Make sure your avo is ripe: Underripe avo is not good!  It’s best soft but not bruised. You can test the ripeness by gently pressing the stem, if it easily depresses, it’s perfect and ready to go.
  2. Don’t over smash: It’s best to lightly smash, not completely mash to a puree.
  3. Season well: Be sure to bring out the best in the avo with the pepper. A squeeze of lemon or chilli is another option to make your avo sing.

Print Recipe

Cafe Styled Smashed Avocado


  • 1 slice wholemeal bread
  • 1/2 avocado
  • 2 tbsp reduced fat feta
  • 1/2 tsp Pepper
  • 4 cherry tomatos halved
  • 1 tbsp balsamic vinegar


  • 1 slice wholemeal bread
  • 1/2 avocado
  • 2 tbsp reduced fat feta
  • 1/2 tsp Pepper
  • 4 cherry tomatos halved
  • 1 tbsp balsamic vinegar


  1. In a small bowl roughly mash avocado, feta and pepper until just combined.

  2. Add cherry tomatoes and mix.

  3. Spread avocado mix on hot toast and drizzle with balsamic vinegar. Serve immediately.

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Every week you are given a different meal plan to follow and each month we NEW recipes to our Healthy Mummy App. That way, you’ll never get bored and stay on weight loss track while digging into healthy, yummy recipes.

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Cicily reveals why it’s so IMPORTANT to LOVE your body, even if you want to lose weight

When you’re feeling heavy or unhealthy, it’s easy to feel resentful towards your body. So many people believe their problems will go away if they lose weight. They believe they may feel less depressed or will become more confident if they shed the kilos.

However, Healthy Mummy Super Coach Cicily Goodwin, who has lost 56kg through the 28 Day Weight Loss Challenge, says a negative attitude towards your body could be the reason you’re struggling to fit into your jeans.

It’s important to actually LOVE your body, even if it’s not how you want to look. By loving your body, you’re actually saying to yourself that you want to take care of yourself and make better health-related decisions. And that’s important to any healthy lifestyle overhaul…

Cicily admits she was critical about her body when she was 128kg

‘I started my Healthy Mummy journey at 128kgs. Being a size 24, I was often critical about my body and felt quite negatively about myself.

But I knew in order to change my life I needed to change my mindset. So I took it upon myself to start a journey of self love and began to fall in love with myself by doing a few things differently.”

Cicily’s top tips to start loving your body at every step of your journey

1. Stop talking negatively about yourself.

“Calling yourself fat isn’t helping! It’s time to leave those toxic words in the past and start appreciating what YOUR body can do.”

2. Start thanking your body every day for all the things it has done for you

“Birthing your beautiful babies, allowing you to move around and carry out your life. Keeping you healthy.”

3. Dress to make yourself feel better

“You don’t have to go out and buy yourself nice, expensive clothes! You can just do your hair nice to wear your favourite outfit a bit more often.

If you’re living in black tights and a baggy t shirt, go and find a beautiful colourful dress that accentuates your body shape! It will help make you feel better.

Add in other things that make you feel beautiful. Get a new haircut or change the colour, go get your nails done or any beauty treatments you’ve been wanting to try, I’m a sucker for eyelash extensions! But find whatever it is that makes you look in the mirror everyday and feel proud.”

4. Focus on your favourite body parts

“Have a good look at your body, what’s your favourite part? Focus on that.”

5. ‘Beautiful’ or ‘healthy’ doesn’t mean you have to be skinny

“You don’t need to be a size 0 to be beautiful! Some curvy women, like Marilyn Monroe or Sofia Vergara, are among the most beautiful in the world and they aren’t super skinny. You are who you are and you can be beautiful and healthy at a size 12 or 14. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself.”

6. Tell yourself you are beautiful often

“Fake it ‘til you make it! If you don’t love the way you look right now, it’s okay! But start telling yourself that you do, every day look in the mirror and say ‘You are beautiful!’, ‘I am on my journey to a healthier me’, ‘I will nourish my body with the best foods to help it thrive and transform’.

7. Accept who you are and what you’ve done

“Accept that whatever you’ve done or eaten in the past is just that, the past! You are now taking control of your body and giving it everything in needs, and in return your body will give you everything that YOU need. Focus on what you can do TODAY to support your body’s needs.”

“I can honestly tell you, you will get sooo much further by loving your body than you will from hating it, so leave those negative thoughts at the door and start to change the way you talk and feel about your body.

It’s okay if you don’t feel it straight away, but if you keep up with these good habits, you CAN fall in love with yourself, you don’t have to wait until you reach your goal to do it!”

Cicily’s 56kg weight loss story

The mum-of-two from Nambucca Heads reveals she struggled with hypothyroidism and often didn’t see the results of her hard-work. But that all changed when she signed up to the 28 Day Weight Loss Challenge!

“I used to blame my problems on others, now I realise I was just unhappy in myself but in too much denial to see it,” says Cicily.

Cicily reveals she used to buy maternity clothes when she was at her heaviest.

“I used to buy maternity clothes just because they were stretchy and forgiving. Now I can buy tight denim,” she says. “I used to buy daggy undies, now I buy whatever I want because it all comes in my size.

“I used to wear size 24 tights, now I can fit both of my legs in one leg hole.”

What’s more,  Cicily states that the 28 Day Weight Loss Challenge is not a diet but a lifestyle change!

“I’ve lost a lot of weight with The Healthy Mummy. I cannot recommend it enough. It’s a new world. But that’s not the great part about it,” says Cicily. 

“It’s not the number on the scales that makes me happy…it’s walking past a mirror and not hating what I see!”

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Lisa lost 55 pounds

Lisa lost 55 pounds with healthy food and exercise. After her thyroid was removed due to thyroid cancer, losing the pounds got even more challenging. In 2014, she started taking steps to transform her life and her eating habits. At 51 years old, she is thriving and encouraging people to embrace healthy habits. 

There is a poem that perfectly describes my health journey. It’s called a “Beautiful Mess.” This is ME. I looked cute but felt like a huge mess. 

In 2008, I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer and underwent a complete thyroidectomy. Losing my thyroid set my weight challenge into overdrive. In 2014, seeing a photo taken during a girlfriend’s birthday celebration in Florida changed my WHOLE life. I couldn’t believe it was ME. 

I’ve been on this journey for seven years. I’ve had ups and downs. I can honestly say that I finally figured out what works and what doesn’t work for me. I enjoy this lifestyle, even the challenges. I’m still a work in progress, especially now that I’m 51 years mature, Lol. I purposely use every day to encourage someone to live a healthier lifestyle at all levels. I do this in my walking group, called SOLE2SOLE, and my fitness groups. Getting healthy to stay healthy is my goal! 

How did you change your eating habits?
In the beginning, my eating habits were horrible. I didn’t eat. I basically starved myself. Then I tried different plans, from Weight Watchers to Nutrisystem. Next, I got a nutritionist who created a healthy diet for me. It worked for a few months, but then my non-metabolism body caught on. 

It took a couple of years to figure out how to trick my body into burning fat. Since 2017 I have done just that. I detox with JJ Smith’s green smoothies for two weeks every other month, followed by a meal plan which usually consists of Keto foods or micronutrients.

Tell us about your workout routine.
I love working out now. However, it was a struggle in the beginning. I would sleep in my workout clothes to motivate myself. I tend to work out 5-6 times a week. I do mostly strength training, HIIT, and cardio.

What was your starting weight? What is your current weight?
My starting weight was 215 pounds, and today I weigh 160 pounds. My goal weight is 150 pounds.  

What is your height?
My height is 5″5.

What is the biggest lesson you’ve learned so far?
Through the ups and downs, I think the biggest lesson has been never be ashamed to hit the RESTART BUTTON.  

What advice would you like to share with women who want to lose weight?
It’s okay to have a cheat “meal,” not a cheat day. I permit myself a cheat meal every 14 days.

Is weight loss surgery part of your journey?
Although I haven’t had weight loss surgery, I am considering a tummy tuck to remove the remaining loose fat around my abdomen. After four pregnancies and two c-sections, it’s my least favorite area. With it, it’s hard to achieve my desired look.

Instagram: @Lisaasil70


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Mum loses 16kg and now has dropped down from a size 20 to size 14

Elizabeth Swan decided it was time she put herself first. The Victoria-based mum actually credits the shake-up of her working conditions during the global pandemic for helping her jump on the healthy bandwagon and sign up to the 28 Day Weight Loss Challenge.

Amazingly, she’s lost 16kg and 100 cm in body measurements. She’s also dropped three dress sizes!

How Elizabeth dropped 16kg and went down 3 dress sizes

Mum-of-one Elizabeth, 42, admits that after Christmas 2019, she felt like it was time to start thinking about what she was eating.

“I had spent that year not caring about what was putting in my mouth, wasn’t moving my body,” she says.

“I knew that my overall health required me to start eating healthy and exercising, but I needed it to be with a long-term outlook, not a diet as that hadn’t lasted for me in the past.”

At the time, Elizabeth was a size 20 and wanted to find a program that would work for her, that’s when she found The Healthy Mummy.

“I also did not want to have to buy clothes in a size 20 which is where I was heading at the time. I then started researching for a program that would fit into my solo-parenting, almost full-time working lifestyle that wasn’t going to feel restrictive and therefore I wouldn’t stick to,” she says.

“Then I found The Healthy Mummy. I joined up on a special lifetime membership deal, started slowly, just exercising when I could fit it in from the app exercises and just following the meal plans for all meals and snacks except dinners.”

How Covid helped Elizabeth find more time to get in shape

Then Covid hit and Elizabeth began working from home, which meant she had two more hours a day, without having to commute, to get into a routine of exercising six mornings a week and I started adjusting dinners to The Healthy Mummy meal plan as well.

“Other than a few weeks since then, I have kept up that routine every week,” she says. “I still have takeaway (or fakeaway) and drinks on Friday nights and although my progress has slowed in 2021, I was never after a quick fix, my motto really is ‘progress, not perfection’ so I’m happy that I’m still keeping to this new lifestyle that is making me my healthiest self for me and my son.”

Elizabeth now has fewer migraines

Before discovering The Healthy Mummy, the gorgeous mum reveals she suffered from frequent migraines but since then, they have become less regular. She says she’s also able to keep up with her son now!

“My clothes that used to be tight/didn’t fit are now loose, I have physical definition in my abs, arms and thighs slowly coming through,” she says.

“Mentally, I don’t sweat the small stuff as much anymore and although my body confidence wasn’t too bad before, I feel so much more confident in my own skin and I feel like I’m really oozing confidence in my career more now as well, coming out of my shell and taking the lead on things more. To sum it up I feel like I’ve become a #fitbossmum.”

What Elizabeth eats for success

Each week I try to mix it up!


I’ll either have a granola type bowl like peanut butter granola or an egg based dish like feta scrambled eggs or a smoothie.


It can be anything from a soup like the Root Vegetable Soup from the Healthy Mummy App, to a poke style dish like the Ginger Chicken Rice Bowl or just a simple ham n cheese toastie.


These can be simply apple with peanut butter, or something I’ve bulk baked/cooked like Banana Cake or Choc Chip Banana Bread.


All of the pizzas like spinach and ricotta as well as Mexican Pork Fajita, Beef Burritos and Chicken Parmigiana.


They are usually things like Apple Pie Mug Cake or a yoghurt dish like Mango Yoghurt with sweet macadamia crumbs.


I’ve tried many of the workouts, but my favourites are Boxing with Laura – especially the lives from October 2020! Also I love the stronger advanced with Natalia and don’t mind a bit of the dance cardio with Jade

Other Healthy Mummy products Elizabeth uses

It’s not just the Challenge app that helps Elizabeth stay healthy, she reveals she is also a big fan of The Healthy Mummy Smoothies and Protein Powder.

She says, “I have a smoothie for breakfast from time to time, I have the original Caramel and the Tummy Smoothie (vanilla) flavours – my favourite smoothie recipe is the date caramel smoothie!

“I’ve used the Protein Powder to boost smoothies/smoothie bowls, the Vitamin C/Zinc Boost as a refreshing afternoon drink especially in hot weather.

“I also now use The Healthy Mummy Skin products – the Pink Clay Mask once a week or fortnight, the Revive Face Oil almost every night, and the Superfood Serum almost every morning.”

Elizabeth’s tips for other mums who want success

1. Get into a routine

Work it around your lifestyle. For me, I can’t get to a gym and need to exercise early mornings or else it doesn’t get done so that’s what I started doing – my workout is done before my son is up and then my day can’t talk me out of it!

2. Track your days on the app

Make a record of everything from water, food and exercise. I try to do daily diary posts on my local HM consultant FB group (for me that’s Cassie McKay) to keep myself accountable!

3. Mix it up with the recipes so it doesn’t get boring

I’ve made it a weekly goal that at least 1 recipe I make each week is new to me – invariably I try more than just 1 new recipe and sometimes you find something you thought you might not like actually end up being on your favourites list!

4. Get back into it ASAP after falling off the wagon

If you seem to have a ‘bad’ day – there’s no such thing – this is meant to be a lifestyle, 1 day of not following your calories or not moving your body is not going to undo your hard work, just enjoy those relaxed eating/rest days and get back into it again the next day or when you get back from holiday. Don’t punish yourself for not following things strictly 24/7!

It’s all about progression not perfection!

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Levi’s Birth Story

Somehow we have already experienced an entire month with our precious Levi. In one sense, I can’t believe it’s been a whole month, and in another, it feels like I gave birth a lifetime ago. Any parent of young children understands that paradox. The days are never-ending but the months and years fly by. As exhausting as these newborn days are, I know how fleeting, how brief, they really are. I know that I’ll be looking back in 20 years—which will feel like 20 minutes—and they will have been the best years of my life. I miss them already.

I’m thankful to be able to say that Levi’s birth was much less eventful (is traumatic too strong a word here?) than James’s was, but even still, labor and delivery are wild. They’re transformative, magical, brutal events. So, without a moment more preamble, here is the story of how I gave birth to the newest love of my life.

In the last few weeks of my pregnancy, I was beyond uncomfortable, so I was really hoping to deliver by my due date. But both of my boys seem to like hanging out in mom’s tummy for as long as possible. They’re comfy cozy in there, and given the state of the world, I can’t blame them. I had an ultrasound appointment at my doctor’s office when I was 40 weeks and 5 days. Ultrasounds have been really tough on my anxiety ever since my miscarriage and I had a cyst on my placenta this time around so when the doctor said my amniotic fluid appeared low, I started to worry. It was low but not critical so she said we would schedule the induction for the following day. But as I drove away from the office, she called and told me to head straight to the hospital.

First, I was supposed to get a Covid test at a site near the doctor’s office so I called Daniel on my way there. He scrambled to arrange child care for James. His sister was on standby but lives over an hour away and we were supposed to be at the hospital within an hour. He called my step dad, who was working from home, and he was kind enough to come over right away. But then my mom found out what was going on and left work immediately to fly over.

We got to the hospital a few minutes late but I was so hungry so we stopped in the cafeteria first. I had a chicken caesar wrap and then we went right upstairs to check in. It was my first time going “out to eat” in over six months.

We started with a pitocin test to see if the baby would handle the induction. One of my least favorite aspects of being induced is being strapped to all the monitors. When I’m pregnant I have to pee every 30-45 minutes and always get so embarrassed asking the nurse to help me remove all the cords. I’m just slightly uncomfortable the whole time. The baby was handling it well so we started cytotec at 6:30 pm when I was 1.5cm dilated.

My first night of induction (yes there was more than one sadly) went ok. I had a chicken pot pie for dinner from the hospital room service which my mom found hilarious when I told her on the phone. She couldn’t believe I wanted a heavy meal like that but having something hearty sounded good. Daniel and I watched some pregnancy themed movies on his laptop. We started with Baby Mama which held up and was really fun and then we watched Due Date which wasn’t nearly as good. I tried to get some rest but Daniel only had a chair because we weren’t in a delivery room yet, just an observation room so he was up most of the night.

We were moved to a delivery room the next morning and continued with the cytotec. Not much was happening so they suggested a foley balloon. I think I’m someone who handles pain pretty well but I found it really difficult. About an hour later when I was peeing for the hundredth time, the foley balloon fell out which suggested I was coming along. At my next cervical check the doctor stripped my membranes, which was just a horrific experience. I found it so excruciatingly painful and she just kept going even though I wanted it to stop. I was only 3cm dilated at this point.

I started to get really scared. My experience with James was such a difficult ordeal that left me with some trauma about delivery. I began to wish I just was having a C section than going through everything again. Our nurse was really reassuring and we decided to start pitocin in the afternoon. That afternoon we watched Friends and some Darcey and Stacey on TV. The pitocin was gradually increasing but I didn’t feel much yet. Just mild discomfort. They started to increase in intensity in the evening.

Anyone who has given birth knows that your experience depends heavily on your nurse. The doctors pop in every few hours but the nurse is who you mostly see. I didn’t really feel like I had a good vibe with our nurse on the night shift the night before. She wasn’t as warm as I’d like. So I was disappointed when I had the same nurse when my labor started to really kick in. But I realized something important. During labor, being warm isn’t as important as being competent and reassuring. She turned out to be the perfect nurse for labor, while my other nurse was perfect for pre labor.

I was in a lot of pain by 9pm. I didn’t want the epidural too early because I was worried it would slow things down too much. I asked my nurse about the right timing and she told me I’d know when the time is right. If I wasn’t sure, it probably wasn’t the right time. I found that answer really annoying at first but again, it turned out she was right.

I decided I would try to make it 10 more minutes then decide, at the end of the 10 minutes I’d see if I could last ten more. I made it 30 minutes and then decided to cut the time limit to 5. After 35 minutes, I knew it was time. The anesthesiologist came in and like everything with me and labor, it didn’t go smoothly but ended up ok. He had some trouble placing it and had to call for help. My lower back is always sensitive and it was hard for me to hold in the right position especially because he was giving confusing instructions. He kept telling me to “fold my back like an accordion” then I’d try it and he’d say louder “No, like an ACCORDION.” Daniel tells me to move my back like an accordion about once a day now. My wonderful nurse told me all about her life and kids while they were trying to put it in to take my mind off it. And Daniel’s attention was mostly focused on the Celtics playoff game but I did catch a glimpse of his horrified face when he was looking at what they were doing. He promptly followed with a big smile and thumbs up. After the epidural I went to sleep.

I woke up at about 6am with the most INTENSE pressure. My first thought was that my bladder was about to explode (at our hospital they don’t give you a catheter that stays in; they insert a catheter and empty your bladder every 3 or so hours). I didn’t know what to do. My nurse came in, emptied my bladder, but the pressure didn’t let up. She checked my cervix and sure enough, I was at 10cm, ready to go. I was surprised by how uncomfortable the urge to push was. It’s a sensation of I NEED TO PUSH NOOOOWWW and I can’t wait a second longer but also this thing is way too big to push out of my body. She immediately called for the doctor but he wasn’t available so a resident came in. He was a young ER doctor doing a delivery rotation that night. He had never delivered a baby, great. I couldn’t wait. I was about to disobey the orders and just start pushing on my own when I looked over and saw Daniel brushing his teeth. At the time it seemed pretty crazy but he assures me his breath was really bad.

I pushed once and saw that the doctor looked more scared than me. I think my nurse noticed and she called for some reinforcements. The charge nurse came running in for my second push. And then the OB came in. He put on one glove as he was getting in position, and as he was putting on his second glove I pushed with all my might and WHOOSH he was out. I heard a big, hearty cry as my perfect little Levi came rushing out onto the bed. The doctor quickly scooped him up, placed him on my chest, and the whole world changed. My body tingled from my head to my toes, my heart was in my throat. I looked at Daniel, with tears in his eyes. Oh Levi, here you are, I thought. The newest, freshest love of my life. I love youuu, I told him seven hundred thousand times in a row. Eight pounds five ounces of pure, gorgeous love. And then, he pooped all over me.

In the month since, there’s been a lot more poop—and I mean a lot—but there’s been even more love.

I’m so happy he’s mine 🙂

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Holiday Gift Guide 2020

Choosing the perfect gift for someone special can be difficult, to say the least. I’m always looking for new and different ideas, especially for the women in my life. So if you want a little inspiration for the holidays 2020, here are some of my favorite things!

*Note: This post is not sponsored in any way. Everything you see here is something I either bought myself or was gifted by my mom/best friend. Some of the links are affiliate links.

UGG Ansley Slippers $99
Every morning and evening when I slip my feet into these comfy, supportive, shearling-lined moccasins, I sigh with relief and thank my mother (silently) for gifting them to me three Christmases ago.

Silk pillowcase $45
Sleeping on a silk pillowcase is said to be better for your hair and your skin (I know people who travel with theirs). But it’s one of those things I always hesitate to buy for myself—which is one of the criteria I use to determine if it’s a good gift for someone I love.

Turbie Twist microfiber hair towel $7.99
Last year my mom gave me a Turbie Twist, just…out of the blue. I didn’t expect much, in fact, I laughed when I saw it—but it has quickly become an everyday essential. It dries my hair in no time and dries itself even faster (no damp towels here).

Jigsaw Puzzles
We need all the indoor activities we can get, which is why puzzles are such a hit in 2020. These three are pleasantly challenging and absolutely beautiful.
Piecework Rise and Shine Puzzle $36
Areaware Gradient Puzzle $20
Gray Malin Two Sided Beach Puzzle $25

Oribe Dry Texturizing Spray $40
I’m not overstating things to say that this is a holy grail product for every person who wants full hair with unbelievable body and volume. It’s just a bonus that it happens to smell amazing, too.

Olive and June The Mani System $50
All the tools you need for perfect nails at home, plus a polish of your choice and their super glossy top coat. Olive and June’s long-lasting polish is also 7 free: formulated without Dibutyl phthalate (DBP), Toluene, Formaldehyde, Formaldehyde resin, Camphor, Ethyl tosylamide, Xylene.

Skinceuticals CE Ferulic $166
Years ago I went to the dermatologist for a skin check (always watching out for skin cancer) and after I got the all-clear I asked her, “What is the one product you’d recommend for anti-aging?” Without hesitation, she said, “Skinceuticals CE Ferulic.” I thanked her, wrote down the name, went home, and looked it up online. Turns out there are countless other dermatologists, estheticians, and skincare-obsessed folks who swear by it, too. It’s pricey but with that kind of cult following, it might be worth it.

Revlon One-Step Hair Dryer And Volumizer Hot Air Brush $42
Every person that blow dries their hair with some regularity has cursed the process a time or two and wished—prayed—for an easier way. Well this might be the way. When I saw there were just shy of 99,000 (99,000 I said!) reviews and 4.5 stars on Amazon, I added two to my cart immediately (one for my mom, one for me).

Untamed $17
I adore Glennon Doyle and was blown away by her newest memoir, Untamed. It was funny, raw, utterly compelling, and full of moments of self reflection for me. I’d recommend it to anyone, but especially the women in your life.

Johanna Howard ‘100% That Girl’ candle $24
“You took a DNA test and it said you were strong, smart, caring and fearless.” This hand-poured candle is scented with lavender, sage, and rosemary, and according to the website, it’s made from a proprietary blend of coconut and soy wax, with a cotton core wick and phthalate-free fragrance oils to create an environmentally friendly, long-burning, wonderful smelling candle.

Cavo ‘After A Good Cry’ candle $24
This 100% organic soy wax candle from Cavo is said to smell like a hug (Rainwater + Lavender + Vanilla Bean + Bourbon) and comes with its very own playlist.

Magnolia Bakery Banana Pudding $56
When I was pregnant last summer, I casually mentioned to my best friend how good a big ol’ bowl of banana pudding from Magnolia Bakery in NYC sounded. Days later, I had a party-sized tub of it on my doorstep and I was in heaven…and then in a food coma. Here’s where you can order it as a gift, too.

Cookbooks ~$20
It’s safe to say we’re all cooking more this year, so now is the time to invest in cookbooks—for ourselves and the ones we love. Here are my recent favorites:

Two Peas & Their Pod Cookbook: Favorite Everyday Recipes from Our Family Kitchen

Skinnytaste Meal Prep: Healthy Make-Ahead Meals and Freezer Recipes to Simplify Your Life

Holy Sweet!: 60 Indulgent Recipes for Bigger, Better Desserts

The Pretty Dish: More than 150 Everyday Recipes and 50 Beauty DIYs to Nourish Your Body Inside and Out

The Well Plated Cookbook: Fast, Healthy Recipes You’ll Want to Eat

Modern Comfort Food: A Barefoot Contessa Cookbook

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What I Love This Week

We won’t be celebrating Thanksgiving with all of our extended family and friends this year, but I’m still looking forward to it. We have so much to be thankful for, even in all of the madness of 2020. Daniel and I celebrated a few Thanksgivings with just the two of us when we lived on the other side of the country and those are some of my favorite holiday memories. We’ll be spending this Thanksgiving day with our parents and that’ll be enough 🙂

I wrote a post with some tips on celebrating holidays without family based on my experience. It’s depressing and frustrating that I originally wrote that for Easter and it’s still relevant now.

I hope everyone has a small, safe, and happy holiday!

A few good reads:

There have been a bunch of celebrity sightings in Central Park recently. Barry the Barred Owl has captured everyone’s attention. “He’s a great looking owl.”

There finally seems to be a solution to the foggy glasses problem: putting a bandaid over the mask.

A fascinating look at spider silk, which is stronger than kevlar.

It turns out computers judge women based on their appearance too. The top label from Google’s image recognition service was “official” for men politicians and “smile” for women. A troubling look at bias in AI.

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Having a Baby with Colic

For the first two weeks of Levi’s life, Daniel and I looked at each other, shook our heads in disbelief, and said, “Now THIS is an easy baby.” We remembered how hard it was when James was a newborn. He was perfect in every way and we loved him like crazy…but he never slept. I remember friends and family would visit and ask, “So is he just sleeping ‘round the clock?” No, nooo, I’d say, not even close. James came out of the birth canal wide awake and ready to see the sites of life. But Levi—Levi didn’t even open his eyes for the first two days. He didn’t fuss, didn’t seem to need much at all—he just slept. He didn’t even cry in the car, like James always had. Daniel and I were so surprised, so happily, happily surprised. Relieved even! By the time he was a week and a half, still a sleepy little lamb, we really thought we had it made in the shade. Sure he projectile vomited every day, but his brother spit up all the time, too, and as with any symptom you google, it could be normal (or an immediate medical emergency…but probably normal…). And then.

Right around the two-and-a-half-week mark, it all changed. Levi was awake—and he wasn’t happy about it. It was like he wanted nothing more than to sleep but he just couldn’t bring himself to do it. He’d start to drift off and then his body would fight desperately to hold on to alertness. It was like we were witnessing his mind and his body wrestle. Suddenly he could not sleep unless he was in our arms, which wasn’t that out of the norm for us, since James wanted to be held, too. He was a newborn after all. But the holding became more and more of a constant, urgent need. He began crying uncontrollably, inconsolable for most of the day, every day. He’d pull his legs up to his chest and writhe in discomfort. The projectile vomiting continued. Nothing soothed him.

So we changed formulas, to something gentler. It took half a week—maybe more—to take effect, but slowly he stopped throwing up. He seemed to be in less discomfort after he ate. But the crying didn’t stop. We went to the doctor for his one month well visit. We love our pediatrician. She’s been our doctor for the past two years with James. And when Daniel told her all that was happening with Levi she nodded, understanding, and said, “It sounds to me like classic colic.”


I can’t tell you how many times I found myself, at 3am, googling, “How to tell if my baby has colic.” In my family, colic is talked about like a living nightmare, like a disease you pray you don’t get. My brother was colicky. My niece, too. This cousin, that cousin, so-and-so’s sister’s son. Colic is what I feared.

And yet, hearing the pediatrician say it was oddly calming. Validating. It relieved me to know that likely nothing more was the matter with our baby. For a week I’d asked Daniel repeatedly, “What if he has something wrong? Like really wrong.” We wondered. And of course, there is always worse. So when the doctor said colic, I was reassured that no, fortunately, it wasn’t worse. It was just a challenge that we’d make it through. She told us it tends to last 3 or 4 months, that it usually peaks at 6 weeks, that there are a lot of things people will recommend trying, but from her experience, sometimes babies just, well, cry for 3…maybe 6…months.

We started giving him a probiotic and these colic drops that stain everything I own. I have discovered that everything I own is light colored. I don’t know if either works because he’s still crying, but one thing they do do, is make me feel like I’m trying. And that’s something.

The one thing that seems to help is bouncing him on the exercise ball. He likes to be cradled and bounced vigorously. He still might fuss and cry a little but the screaming usually stops. We have an upstairs ball and a downstairs ball and my vertebrae are smashed to dust, but at least there is something we can do.

Daniel and I are essentially passing him back and forth between us, holding him and bouncing him for almost all of his sleep because if we don’t (and we’ve tried), he will cry to seemingly no end. Daniel takes the first shift of the night, until 3am, and then I get up with him. On a good day, Levi will do one period of sleep of 2-3 hours at the beginning of the night, which is an improvement from a month ago.

Overall he is trending in a better direction. He has less periods of intense crying and more ability to de escalate. But Christmas Eve was a low point. We were at my parents and didn’t have the precious exercise ball, so when he started to get upset, he couldn’t stop. We tried walking, running, jumping, rocking, but nothing could calm him so we had to leave early and the heartbreaking ride home with one son screaming and the other blocking his ears and quietly singing to himself was a low point in this parenting experience.

So as it turns out, colic is a living nightmare. That’s the way it feels. It’s impossible to imagine how stressful it is without experiencing it, and I know that now. The shrieking and crying, the powerless feeling of not being able to soothe your precious tiny baby, the 24 hours a day of it and not knowing if or when it will end…it’s hard. It’s isolating. I’ve talked to other moms who have been diagnosed as having PTSD after going through particularly bad colic, and I can understand why.

It might be a bit easier if we weren’t also trying to care for and engage with a two-year-old, or if we weren’t in a pandemic where no one can really come over and help or just distract us from the crying, but hey, nobody said it would be easy. And really, it’s all going to be OK. All of this is survivable. If nothing else, it brings Daniel and me even closer. There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t look at him and think, oh thank God for you.

We’re still hanging in there, living fiercely in the present moment, one moment at a time, and not thinking ahead because that only creates anxiety. We’re tired. Sometimes it feels like my body is pumping out adrenaline and cortisol nonstop. I have had some incredibly low moments where I really feel incapable of being a mom in this situation, at least the kind of mom I want to be. I wish I had endless patience and compassion but there are times where I just can’t take the screaming anymore and hand him off to Daniel and head to the basement and cry. But as bad as it is, I’m not hopeless. I think things are improving. It’s the gift of the second child: knowing that nothing lasts forever. And listen, there’s still a whole lotta joy around here. This is what it is to be a parent. I will do anything—everything—for these tiny, unbelievably lovable beings we made, even if that means I lose sleep and many, many brain cells in the process 🙂